i like xanga so much better than myspace. i really do.

but i use myspace more. so get on it like kryptonite.

peace.

-C

Currently Listening What the Game's Been Missing! By Juelz Santana see related

i am patiently waiting for the day i can go into a store and leave without being bothered by lame game...

do i look like i can't carry 2 bags? am i really that skinty looking?

i'm leaving the store.. pushing my basket... i had about 4 bags. some dude was mugging me in the store before i checked out... ignored it. keep taking care of business.

start walking outside and i hear a "aye there"
i looked him in his face and studied it for a moment, replying-
"fine."
i was walking rather fast.. he kept up.
was that supposed to impress me?
he walks next to my basket and starts cheap conversation.
"so.. you musta came in here trying to get one thing and ended up taking the store home..."
ummmm..... dude, i have 4 bags. get a life.
i reply, "no.. just a few essentials."
he then starts looking in my bags AS im walking with my basket... UM, EXCUSE ME... tell your mom she should have done a better job in teaching your rude azz some manners.
"OH! i see somebody is trying to get their school on."
if he were looking at my face instead of my newly purchased items, he'd have seen my look of disgust.
"yep. gotta stay on the dean's list."
he laughs.
"if you're on the dean's list you must have like a 4-0, right?"
this idiot obviously knew nothing about college. dam locals.
he continued, "well, i have a 3.94 myself"
me- "do it big then."
by this time i've reached my car. i'm prepared for him to try something slick. ha! this country girl ain that dumb. i leave my wallet in my car. thank God for bank of america key chain cards.
"this is a cute ride! what is this, the new way to preserve gas or something?"
"no, just A to B."
i'm putting my things in my trunk. he didn't even ask to help- not like i would have wanted him to- but he could have at least taken the blame off his mother by fooling me into thinking he was a gentleman.
"A to B? What's that?"
Oh.. and you have a 3.94? Right...
"point A to point B."
he laughs again.
is that supposed to impress me?
"so, what's your name?"
okay. stop. do you REALLY think i'm gonna give you the honor of knowing anything about me? Hmm...
"Stephanie."
"Stephanie?"
dang nigga, did i stutter?
"...yeah."
Closed the trunk. Put my key in the car door. He asked me if we could talk later but his homie comes from around another car and says, "aye, whurr we parked at?"
I replied, "well, nice talking to you."
"over there. we can't talk later though?"
"nah, i'm straight.. thanks."
close car door.

once my car was in a good distance i started venting. shouting. yelling.. just angry. do i look like you can impress me with laughing at everything i say? do i look like i'm gonna go for being approached in a walmart parking lot?
GIVE ME A BREAK.

guys like that make it hard for guys who really do stand a chance. yes, us ladies are particular about where we're approached, and how. those few of us ladies with substance, i should say. we're not arrogant, nor conseited- we just love ourselves... feeling that even the most miniscule details about us are priceless. we cherish who we are- what we stand for- what we believe. did i mention we aren't dumb? i don't have a "4-0"... but over time, i've gained some kind of sense. we can tell who's ginuine and who isn't... for the most part. we can tell who's looking for a future, who just wants to cut, who means to be a blessing... all from the first few words... and trust me,

"so.. you musta came in here trying to get one thing and ended up taking the store home..."

does not cut it.... especially if i only have 4 bags.

or maybe it's just me. goodnight.

MERRY JESUSMAS, EVERYONE!

yeah, i kno it's late.. but it wasn't ur birthday anyway...

wrote this poem... feedback plz? jus free-wrote it like 15 minutes ago.. woulda put it on myspace but dont want the world to see it jus yet...

his love is like dope
it gets me high
flyin me thru the sky
for miles and miles
he
doesnt kno the happiness he brings
he
can not feel how my soul loves to sing
his name
for no reason at all
just out of no where finding love with a fall
i've
fallen
head over heels
keepin my balance thru my mind's turnin wheels
constantly
he's giving me
reasons to feel like its okay to breathe
life
is so much better with this
so much better only
because of his kiss
one kiss
from him
can make my gray skies turn to blue
all i can think of is carmen and you
you..
my you-know-who..

Currently Listening The Breakthrough By Mary J. Blige Be Without You see related

i heard this tight song on the radio tonight.... it's called tally-ho tip.... some new tallahassee dance... i cant wait to see it so me and whitney can kill it at whatever party we grace our presence with next...

SO WHAT'S REALLY GOOD WIT U FOLK????
had a bomb thanksgiving? i hope so.. mine was tight work. i got to see everyone i wanted to see AND plus.... so i'm not complainin, ya dig? i got to see my ex ALOT.... alot more than what i bargained for, actually... which was nice. he and i are actually on this friendship tip that i appreciate very much. we still love each other.. and that ain neva gonna change... so we might as well deal w/it how we can. i got a new lil 'focus' if u will... he hasnt called me back since saturday night tho... so we'll see how long i continue to focus on that... he's cuttin his days short and he dont even kno it..... but in all seriousness.. he and i hav mad potential... he really "put a new hue in my blue" as my girl mystic likes it put...

on another note, i feel so fortunate to hav friends who luv me and are down for me man... ive never had such a tru and sincere group of friends... i love my people..... they're so beautiful and they really dont know how much i cherish them... its like.. all my life i've had people who i've loved and grown close to do me so wrong and just hurt me for no good reason at all.. whether the reason be jealous or whatever... but now, at state, i have a group of friends that i truly love... they're real.. and they really mean the world to me. if there was only some way i could show em... i guess ill just keep prayin for em =)

i was in gainesville pretty much all day on saturday... FSU got their azz whooped by UF... *sigh* yeah it was sumthin serious... but its all good. we lose w/respect and win w/it, ya dig? plus... we beat MIAMI so it ain nothin. i still love my noles. next year should be a better year... we had alot of injuries anyway. but on saturday i got to see alot of old faces... shawn, eric, larry, verlina, dustin....... that was real nice... made my heart flutter a lil bit... i miss my folks from back home on the real...... and plus....

i really wanna move my momma up here w/me. i miss her so much. i love that woman. she's the most beautiful thing i've ever known. so true. she's the closest thing to God i'll ever have. and thas real talk.

i got MAD pictures on facebook.... for those of u who do care, take a peek =)

errrrrmm.... well, i guess i'll get back to studying so i can go to bed early....
you know what, ix-nay on the udying-stay... i might jus go to bed....
im preeeety much in this f-school type attitude... dont ask.

love you all. be blessed. keep prayin for me.

hollaatchabloodcell

PS: what do u do when God has taken u away from a situation... but time is putting u back into it? i gotta get myself out of it before i go back to the way things used to be... and i'm only moving forward in life, not backwards...

Currently Watching Brown Sugar see related

Happy Thanksgiving

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!!!!!!!

I hope that you day is wonderful, blessed, and plentiful! Give God thanks where it's due, ya dig?

Will write more later...... perhaps....

One of these days I'm gonna come here w/a bomb-azz entry. Promise.

peek-a-boo.... http://facebook.com/p.php?id=5230650&l=9f048694ba